I, Rebel

Praying for forgiveness last night, after giving in to a temptation without even a token fight.

The Spirit asked, "How is it you know God's way, and don't do it ?"

I recognize that formulation as quintessential rebellion. I recognize that formulation as too, too often my own innermost heart.

These years of spending deliberate time in God's Presence have been spiritually exalting. Doing so in obedience to Him, I can easily let it exalt my sense of my own obedience.

The Spirit challenged that: gently, but directly.

In His presence, I've learned to hate rebellion as He does, and recognize it as the sin-of-sin. Learned in His Presence too (or rather, re-learned in power) that obedience is His perfect way, and the only way a man ever perfectly pleases Him.

But all that learning is what a friend called "head-polish," mere cognitive assent, unless we walk in it. How is it we know God's way, and don't do it ?

I, rebel.

God, forgive me !!